Well, after a long and painful May/beginning of June– I’m back. I don’t even know where to begin regarding the last few weeks. I guess at the beginning.
Monday the 15th I took my son to school and got a walk in at the lake with my friend emily. It was a perfect day and I mentioned we should walk again soon — I always feel better mentally and physically when I spend time outside and get some exercise in. I picked my son up and we went on with our day like normal. My husband got home and my son ran out to meet him. When he came in he mentioned he’d gotten a text from his mom to come to the hospital an hour away. His dad was hospitalized again. (He has been hospitalized a few months before for similar issues).
We raced to pack our bags and we met my parents at the hospital so they could get the babies. They have helped us out so much lately and I’m so thankful!
When we got to the hospital I wasn’t quite prepared for the severity of the situation. My father in law was very sick.
I’m going to skip the details of the following weeks because I don’t really want to relive them and there’s no point in spelling it all out. Long story short –we slept at hospitals, visited 3 different ICU’s, ate a ton of fast food, made some inappropriate jokes, cried a lot, leaned on each other, prayed constantly, and learned to let go.
My father in law did not make it out of the hospital this time. He passed peacefully and I’m thankful my husband could be with him in his final moments.
My father in law was a really good man. We had our differences of opinion, often…but I never doubted his heart. He loved his wife, his kids, his grandkids. He worked hard hard and was a good provider. I’m sad that my kids most likely won’t remember him.
His passing sucks. There is no other way to put it. I told my husband…it sucks and it isn’t fair. The only good thing to come out of situations is like this …is the closeness you have with your family. You hold each other up in ways you may have never been able to or had to before. You’re there for each other and love each other. You love each other through the pain. There is a lot of love in our family and I am so grateful for it.